Thursday, June 01, 2006
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full of emotions filled with me now.. thinking back when i am in kindergarten.. everyday after schoioil i would go my ah ma hse to eat nap while my parents is working.. then when go primary school.. every weekend.. we would go parkway weekly for our family outing.. eat.. then shopping.. in sec school.. we continue this tradition till i was sec 3 when i am quite busy with band stuff... etc.. ytd morning my mum called mi to go ah ma hse .. i went.. and i am shocked to see.. i told myself.. shes going to be alright.. my mum cried.. my da gu too.. trying to convince her to go hospital.. but my ah ma could not talk.. so my mum and da gu keep on ask while ah mu and ah li (both my family maids) told us that the night before she keep on shout our names.. which to u all is freakish.. but to me.. is jus a repeating process of my ah gong before he pass away.. on that time of coz i was sad.. then after that my cousin came.. she is a lawyer and she told us that she took off tt day.. ok.. so tt really hit me.. something serious going to happen.. but i jus keep telling myself nth will happen.. my cousin did wad my mum and my da gu.. i jus stand there.. sometimes hold my ah ma hand.. there's nth i can do jus telling her i am there.. i am scared in fact.. slowly all my aunt and my uncle all came.. my cosin and her husband both doctors immediately call for ambulance.. apparently my ah ma after consulting them agree to go to hospital.. so all the elders went to hospital whereas the sun all go home and wait forn ews.. my brother followed my mum.. could see my mum is hitted hard.. call dad to inform him also.. when i reach home.. playing dota.. my brother msg me.. tell me that my ah ma coulkd not made thru the night.. i like expected already. but when i see the msg.. tt realli shook mi a bit.. take cab with my sis to TTSH.. when we get in there.. could see my elders all with red eyes.. my ah peh (the da ge of the family) jus trying to calm everyone.. i admire that.. when to see my ah ma.. cannot read blood pressure they told me.. hold her hand and called her.. no response.. so we waited.. 7am till 10am.. my ah ma was apparently waiting for my da gu husband back frm taiwan.. frm 7am to 10am.. my ah ma condition improve considerably.,. when my da gu husband came back.. he hold my ah ma hand.. sae a prayer.. and sae "wo hui lai le" and frm that point onwards.. my ah ma condition jus detoriate.. at 2.50am.. she passed away peacefully.. jus like that.. heartbeat jus slowly slowly stop.. and thats it.. i jus witness a death.. of my grandmother.. what really touch me is jus the whole family waiting for the time to come.. waited patiently.. talk together.. console each other.. its jus so touching to see all this thing happening considering alot of conflict in the family.. but all seems to be forgotten ytd.. after that do the paperwork.. my auntie and uncle was red eyed.. especially my xiao gu and da gu.. ah ma.. i miss u.. take care of urself.. i miss u.. |
