Wednesday, January 25, 2006
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i am in a big dilemania.. In Dec 2003.. i joined a band named philharmonic youth winds.. at that time.. my playing standard is very low.. i did not manage to pass the audition.. was put into probation.. that time the guest conductor is Mr Andy Sim.. He thought me alot of things.. breathing.. phrasing etc.. after the concert@campus1.. we went for the malaysia trip.. for the trip.. i need to went thru a test again.. mr sim says i had shown lots of improvmement.. tone improve.. but technically still noit there.. so again still in probation.. btw.. tt time trombone section onli mi and joel.. =.= always got pw people guest play for them.. learned from joel alot.. and i mean ALOT.. thanks joel.. =) that malaysia trip is meaningful.. receive alot of praises.. and encouragemement.. i begin to feel attached to py.. and i would say that concert is the best concert i every played in my life.. :) after tt concert@campus2.. 2 more trombonist joined.. nono is 3 more.. nathaniel.. kevin and thomas.. tt makes 5 trmbonist ! i did not go thru the round of test but was still put in probation.. that season is fun ! because it jus fun.. 1st 2 season (concert@campus1 and malaysia Trip) is fun.. but quite stressful ? the next season (concert@campus2) is fun and real fun.. because i no longer struggle anymore. It jus enjoying myself.. but not really playing to my full potential.. still feeling inferior.. u all won't believe it.. beside the trombone section, i only know bernard, rafaee, Aiysah, Lewis, Shirin(SHE'S MY GODMOTHER !!), Kelvin (the clarinet de), jing ping. Only all this ? haha.. unbeleivable right ? okok.. then prepare for the Dr Alan Lourens Concert at VCH at march2005. Its a fun experience i thought. very fun. Again, he taught us alot of things. I learn alot too.. After tt concert, i am no longer in probation ! so i thought its the end of those re-test. Well those re-test is good, it keep on push myself. But somehow, i am quite tired already. Wearing me down. So the Esplanade Concert. I miss 5 Practice. 1 Practice down to sickness. 2 Practices instrument Spoil. 1 Practice Balloon Hat festival. 1 practice got family celebrations. so my attendance is below 75%. So they remove me from the concert. But thanks to Shirin and thomas (Section Rep) standing up for me.. they put mi back but to play onli 2nd half ?? so i practice so much also no use.. ok.. but not onli mi is remove.. the WHOLE trombone except thomas is being removed ! and they get pw people to join in.. i would like to add in.. nat is preparing for o lvls.. kevin got bandfest(hes the president of tj band).. Joel got A levels. Well i dunno if it is truel.. nat told mi that he wan to take leave as o lvls is coming near.. but py told him to try to come.. well well.. well not onli trombone section is being removed.. quite a number of people is being removed.. people like bing zhao etc. and they sae we will be back for next season.. oh well !! the esplanade concert is fun.. but to me its ridiculous.. coause i onli play half length of the concert ? ok forget it.. So after that went back to py for the test AGAIN.. i did not really prepare for that test.. cause as i had said.. i am beri tired already.. come on.. i noe i have the standard to play in py.. i 100% !!! know that i am better then D**an.. even thomas agree with me.. but what happen ! he pass and i fail.. becoz my mind went blank went Mr Leonard Tan told mi to play D major Scale. Maybe is i wrong that i did not really prepare.. but wads the point of preparing when i always get test and test after a new season start ? now i am in dilemania.. i join a band called Moulemin Wind Symphony. Its a new band people. Nathaniel also joined with me. Darren also joined. Darren say Zeyu maybe will also join. I am really in a dilemania. I dunno whether should i go back to py to go thru the Audition (As i am not a member of py already.) again or should i jus stay in Moulmein Winds. i ask 2 person.. both person say i should explain to py and stay in moulmein. But.. i have feelings for py already.. i will take my time to decide.. i already prepared well for the audition. If i decided to go back py.. i will go for the audition.. if not.. i will stay in moulmein for the time being and maybe will go back py when their current project with pw ended.. =) :( |
